I'm sorry, faithful readers, that I haven't posted in quite a while. Things have not been so good here in E-town lately and I haven't had the heart to write anything.
After the La Senza debacle I fell into a slump that I'm still having trouble pulling out of. I've been here 2 months officially and you know what? I really miss you guys. I miss you so much. If I was living on my own, answering to no one but myself and keeping the hours and pastimes that I wish to keep, I think I would be going out with new friends a lot more than I am. As it is, I have a few friends and only one that I socialize with outside of work (NICOLE, I ADORE YOU, nearest and dearest to my heart <3 ) and the isolation I'm experiencing as a result is not something I'm used to.
I've been getting a lot more hours at the flower shop, and while I'm tired at the end of the day, my bank account likes the attention and I'll continue to work hard as to keep it fat and happy. 40 hours a week is a stability that I enjoy some aspects of, and I'll keep doing it right up until I leave for BC (more on that as details emerge).
I had a scare a few days ago, though, when I got home from work and my Gran told me she had fallen off her bed onto her left hip. She was walking, but I wanted to take her to the hospital immediately. She didn't, and I don't think does yet, have any idea how horrible last October was when we got that fateful email from her neighbour telling us she had fallen in her condo park and shattered her right elbow, and was in the hospital awaiting major orthopedic surgery. I took her to the doctor the next morning and x-rays showed that her hip wasn't broken, but she's in quite a bit of pain and is using a cane her neighbour gave to her to get around the house.
Now that the situation has leveled out a bit, I've come to two realizations: one is that my gramma won't be able to live by herself for much longer. I give it 2, maybe 3 years tops. Driving is uncomfortable for her because of her newly repaired elbow, and her arthritis bothers her a lot too. Soon the two levels of her house will be too much for her. That makes me sad, because unless she comes to Toronto, I don't know where she'd go.
The second realization is that I never want to get old. I'm Peter Pan. I never want to grow up.
It's raining right now, a blessed relief from the pressing dry heat we've been having for almost a week now. I'm going to bed. Tomorrow, hopefully, will be a better day. I might even be persuaded to review the movie Wall-E, which I saw a few days ago.
-Laur
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It is not easy for Gramma to get old either. I am so glad you were there and it wasn't a nightmare like last October. Proud of you, Honey.
Mom
Aww baby!!! I'm sorry to hear that you're in a funk, but I hope you know that we all love you and miss you!!!
I just got your post-card and I was soo excited. I loved it, thanks so much!!!
I've been enjoying your blog and I must say I love your pictures, they are all so amazing... 'specially the ones with you in them you sexy sexy woman!!
I hope you start to feel better, lover! XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Love, Laura
thank you so much for your comments...they always make my day and keep me going.
secondly, saying goodbye to childhood..i think university has been the first step for me, it stretches your mind in ways you couldn't do as a kid. and secondly, marriage. i have a feeling i will leave a part of childhood behind on my wedding day. at the same time though, i am sure a part of childhood will ALWAYS be with us!
now your turn to answer the question, which i loved by the way.
this post broke my heart. you have to remember the way you'll feel by the end of your first semester back in exam and essay season is WHY you are there having a vacation! as hard as it seems right now, you have to keep your spirits up and have the time of your life because come mid-december, you would give anything to have edmonton back. i am pretty sure. this is a once in a lifetime opportunity, too...after graduation you will probably be too tied up with a career to be able to step away from the everyday for 4 whole months. hang in there...september will be here too soon :)
also - your family and especially gramma are always in my prayers. i hope her hip heals very very quickly and she is walking perfectly again, and i hope God always keeps her in the best of health and happy, too :) it's so hard watching them get older...just gotta keep hoping and praying.
thanks for your messages. i love them. and i love and miss you!! but i want you to be happy. no more missing. make this the trip of your life :)
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